Saturday, June 28, 2014

The reason I get Hyper…

Many people ask me this query, why do I get hyper? Well, let’s just say it is my basic nature. 

Am I hyper all the time? Yes I am! Then why do I come out with two totally different personalities?

Most of the time, I am very generous with people, but at times, I am very harsh. You can see me donate money to India Against Corruption, AAP, Save Ishan, Team Srijan of BIT Mesra, to Olympic athletes. You can also see me teaching music, vedic maths, personality development for the under-privileged. You will also see me training engineering students on employability skills, free of cost. And you will also see me teaching technical stuff to Professors/HODs with PhDs and 16 years of experience in reputed engineering colleges. Nothing to boast here, just basic back-ground about me.

But you also find me, taking a very strong stand, being very adamant about certain things… So how does this all fit?

To understand me, you need to understand few basic things about human psychology and human nature.

If you’re a Hindu, you are well aware of the story of Mahabharata. And if you know Mahabharata you know exactly who Abhimanyu was. He learnt war strategies while he was in his mother’s womb. Today modern science has proved that what a mother eats, feels, thinks, drinks, where she lives, the kind of people she interacts with has huge impact and role in developing the psychology of the child.

Now that you understand it, let us talk about what happened when I was in my mother’s womb. My paternal grand-mother is literally speaking a very very mean and bad lady. She is now suffering for her ‘Karma’. My mother was married off by my maternal grandfather when she was just 18. It was a huge mistake.

When my mother was into 6 months of her pregnancy, the torture by her in-laws became so unbearable for her, that she decided to commit suicide. She drank an insecticide. Somehow, me and my mother were saved. Thanks to Lord Ganesha!

So what does that have to do anything with my hyper nature? Well, this article is based on my discussions with 2 psychologists and 1 psychiatrist (buddies of mine). When this happened, I developed an instinct to protect my mother (and “people in need”, in general) and at the same time, her anger, grew inside me.
So whenever I feel there is some bias or injustice going on, or something that is very illogical, my basic instinct takes over, and I become very angry, which is very much visible to the people around me. But that’s how I am. No medicine can cure it. The doctors advise me to do Yoga. Which I do from time to time, but not regularly, because of the nature of my official work.

Also, when I am suffering from Asthma, Cough and Cold, the medicines that I have to take are very reactive. I know for a fact that during those times, I am working on less than 50% of my intelligence level. This is because medicines are powerful enough to induce sleep. The meds make me feel drowsy and weak all the time. And that’s when my protective instincts take over supported by an adrenaline rush.

For last 10 days this been the case with me. This is the very reason, I have been so hyper.

Helping why it happened, doesn’t make it right, but it at least tells me that by analysing, I know the root cause and hence I can work better on it.

Luckily for me, I am taking a break from the normal work life. Hope to recover from Asthma, Cough & Cold and “Hyper” diseases soon.

Good night Fellas.

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